我們愛，因為 神先愛我們

劉美娟給兒子的信（劉美娟口述、張崇德代筆）

親愛的天藍：
你好嗎？很掛念你！自你離開後，天色總是灰灰的，直至這幾天，陽光終於出現了。沒有你的日子實在很難過，但日子還是要一天一天的過。我和爹每天都會看你的照片，一邊看一邊談論你的可愛。你知道嗎？你的樣子真的很像爹，尤其是嘴仔，簡直是一模一樣，還有你雪白的皮膚，尖尖的下巴，幼長的手指仔，大大的腳板，壯闊的胸膛，我都一一記得。你離開之後，我和爹為你預備的BB房仍然原封不動，多希望你可以睡在爹親手為你裝嵌的床仔上。還有，屬於你的新衣櫃，有我為你親手摺的衫仔，褲仔，毛巾仔及襪仔等，它們都整齊地放在那裹，沒有人動過。天藍，雖然見你的時間不多，但很多情景已印在我腦海中。特別是當你離開後，帶著微笑，好像熟睡了的樣子，是多麼可愛！「想跟你說聲多謝」

你爹說要和我慶祝母親節，代你多謝我。其實你出世後，我只見過你幾面，都未真正照顧過你，我都不知道自己會不會是一個稱職的母親，但我愛你，亦想跟你說聲多謝。多謝你，因為你很堅強。記得在深切治療部，你全身插滿喉管，我和爹摸你和叫你的時候，你很努力地睜開眼睛，你知道那一刻對我們有多重要嗎？經過多次搶救，你仍不願離開，直至我們見你最後一面，跟你說:「BB，如果你太辛苦的話，你不要再捱下去了，也不用擔心我們，我們知道你已盡力，你放心去主耶穌那裹吧！」

你撐到最後一刻才願意離開，We are so proud of you。你的堅強，影響了很多人的生命，你令我們更加懂得珍惜生命，多謝你！亦因為你，讓我們感到很多愛，家人的愛，朋友的愛，弟兄姊妹的愛等等。你不用擔心我和爹，因為每一日都有天父陪著我們渡過。我也知道你現在會過得很好，因為你已在主耶穌的懷裹。天藍，你耐心等我們吧，我們一定會再見的，天家見！

I Love you！

永遠愛你的媽咪

Bun Hill!

Bun competition, a local festival in Cheung Chau. The government allowed the reorganization of the activity after it had been stopped for 26 years.
Here is how it works. All the 'safe buns' are tied on a bamboo frame and form a hill. People climb on the hill and get as many buns as possible. The higher the buns located, the more blessing you get. Only local male residents were allowed to climb the hill before.
26 years ago, people climbed and fell down. Many people broke their legs and arms so the government stopped the organizing the activity.
The reorganization means something! Mudull's 'Twelve bun capture hands' is no longer a cartoon story!

New Life

I resigned last month. Since I landed in this job, I haven't felt the lightness that I am enjoying now for ages. Though resignation means losing job as well, I still have around 70 days to think of my road ahead. Last but not least, 90 day of financial security is enough for me to think as well.